After weeks of improving my flexibility, doing the splits and kicking my head I’ve injured my back again. Can’t even touch my toes.
Doing aerial dance as low as I do because of long term back probs I needed my flexibility to look better then a fat girl doing beginner tricks. Not that anyone is watching. Jacksons Lane was probably my last ever performance.
I can’t take classes because silks is all about climbing heights and big drops my spine can’t take.
There is nowhere to experiment at my own limits as I have to be at an ‘advanced level’ to do so. And nowhere has a loop and silks joined together which avoids me having to strain to invert which supports me tipping over.
At home the hammock frame I hang on creaks horribly I am certain it will snap and I will break my neck alone.
Why is everything always against me?